Saturday, August 2, 2008
3 am >>>>>>
Its been almost a year since my last blog entry.Its funny how things do not change even after so long....it was one of those nights or should I say early mornings when I couldn't sleep because of things weighing on my mind...tried my self-taught twisted psychotherapeutic strategies...counted unicorns...surfed a hundred channels....snacked some comfort food,but nothing worked.Then something magical (I maintain "magical" till this day ) like a flash upon my inward eye read BLOG and if I may add a distinct voice in my head said BLOG.A quick search for blogspot on the WWW and voila ! A blog was born for eternity!
I must warn you though that there may be a fair degree of editing that's required and some free association that you will lose track of somewhere between the first sentence and (if you are insane enough to reach )the second....!
So the lyrics buzzing in my head right now are the lyrics of a yet to be released Alanis Morrissette single : "Incomplete". It goes something like this...
"One day I’ll find relief I’ll be arrived and I’ll be a friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I’ll be at peace I’ll be enlightened and I’ll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy
I have been running so sweaty my whole life Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time Of being forever incomplete
One day, my mind will retreat, and I’ll know god and I’ll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
Ever unfolding Ever expanding Ever adventurous and torturous But never done.
One day, I will speak freely I’ll be less afraid And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filledI’ll be trusting and spacious, authentic and grounded and whole
I have been running so sweaty my whole life Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time Of being forever incomplete. "
I wish I could take credit for these words....but as my friend said ..its almost like Alanis ( apologies for the first name familiarity) stole the words from a million people!So it made me think....we aren't as alone as we think we are.Its all about a common human ancestoral genepool...archetypes from an inherited past...a common human existential malady.No person can ever be complete and whole.How then do we reconcile ourselves to the throes of incompleteness?If I were the epitome of positivity..I would've said "Hope.Love.Faith." If I were a spiritualist..I would've said "A higher power knows what's best for us".But being the contradiction that I am...A realist and a daydreamer...this is a question that I can never find an answer to but one that I will still ask.
They say a song speaks for itself....and I rest my case for now.5 am>>>>>>
Its been almost a year since my last blog entry.Its funny how things do not change even after so long....it was one of those nights or should I say early mornings when I couldn't sleep because of things weighing on my mind...tried my self-taught twisted psychotherapeutic strategies...counted unicorns...surfed a hundred channels....snacked some comfort food,but nothing worked.Then something magical (I maintain "magical" till this day ) like a flash upon my inward eye read BLOG and if I may add a distinct voice in my head said BLOG.A quick search for blogspot on the WWW and voila ! A blog was born for eternity!
I must warn you though that there may be a fair degree of editing that's required and some free association that you will lose track of somewhere between the first sentence and (if you are insane enough to reach )the second....!
So the lyrics buzzing in my head right now are the lyrics of a yet to be released Alanis Morrissette single : "Incomplete". It goes something like this...
"One day I’ll find relief I’ll be arrived and I’ll be a friend to my friends who know how to be friends
One day I’ll be at peace I’ll be enlightened and I’ll be married with children and maybe adopt
One day I will be healed I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy
I have been running so sweaty my whole life Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time Of being forever incomplete
One day, my mind will retreat, and I’ll know god and I’ll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
Ever unfolding Ever expanding Ever adventurous and torturous But never done.
One day, I will speak freely I’ll be less afraid And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filledI’ll be trusting and spacious, authentic and grounded and whole
I have been running so sweaty my whole life Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time Of being forever incomplete. "
I wish I could take credit for these words....but as my friend said ..its almost like Alanis ( apologies for the first name familiarity) stole the words from a million people!So it made me think....we aren't as alone as we think we are.Its all about a common human ancestoral genepool...archetypes from an inherited past...a common human existential malady.No person can ever be complete and whole.How then do we reconcile ourselves to the throes of incompleteness?If I were the epitome of positivity..I would've said "Hope.Love.Faith." If I were a spiritualist..I would've said "A higher power knows what's best for us".But being the contradiction that I am...A realist and a daydreamer...this is a question that I can never find an answer to but one that I will still ask.
They say a song speaks for itself....and I rest my case for now.5 am>>>>>>
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